Pucking Wild: A Reverse Age Gap Hockey Romance (Jacksonville Rays Book 2) by Emily Rath

Author:Emily Rath [Rath, Emily]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Emily Rath Books
Published: 2023-08-20T16:00:00+00:00

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Shelby’s birthday party is chaos. I feel like I’m back in college at a frat party. Music pumps through the house sound system, with people dancing and mingling in every room. There’s a ton of food, even more alcohol, and a present table stacked with gifts. My meager offering of chocolate chunk oatmeal cookies will go unnoticed next to this mountain.

Every Ray seems to be here, and most of them brought wives or dates. I’m casually keeping an eye out for Ryan, but it may be hard to track him down. If we’re both circling around, we could go from room to room missing each other. And, like an idiot, I left my phone in the car. There was nowhere to put it in this damn costume.

I’ve spent the last hour mixing and mingling with this eclectic group of NHL stars and the people who populate Shelby and Josh’s life. I’ve probably met at least thirty people who are church friends, neighbors, or parents from their kids’ schools.

It turns out Josh and Shelby are those people. The people-pleasing social butterflies. They give and give everything to everyone all the time, leaving nothing for themselves. It means that their home is a mess, and their life is chaotic, but they have a hundred people ready to drop everything and dress up to celebrate a birthday.

It’s kind of nice when I think about it. As a Gemini, I can socialize in my sleep. I’m the queen of hosting a great party. But I have an off switch. I need to retreat. I need the quiet. I’m actually deeply private, and I don’t make friends easily.

Troy carries some of the blame for that too. It’s a narcissist’s M.O. to separate and isolate their loved ones from other people who can be critical or voice a second opinion. It took me ten freaking years to realize how effectively he’d removed all my friends from my life.

It started with little things, like he thought my college friend Kelly had an annoying laugh. He worked slowly from there, sowing the seeds of criticism. Her laugh was annoying…then it was her jokes that were annoying…then she was annoying. Then the requests started that we not hang out with her anymore. After a while, I stopped taking her calls, never noticing that it wasn’t my idea.

Yeah, that was a whopper to unpack in therapy.

I resent myself so much that I fell for it. How could I not see what he was doing? How did I not see the way I was changing? But I guess, over time, it’s like all these little pieces of yourself get chipped away. Like a piece of glass, tumbling along the bottom of the sea floor, you change. You get harder, you close yourself off. What once shined with brilliance becomes dull.

And then it’s ten years later and you suddenly realize you don’t laugh anymore. You stopped telling jokes because he never liked that you were funnier than him. And you wanted him to feel good, feel like the man.

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